Time for a change

I haven't blogged in a long time. I guess I've been busy, or maybe I just haven't had much to say. Maybe it's because Katie found out I have a blog and I don't want her making fun of me. Oh well, whatever the reason, I'm in the mood to blog today.

I made a terrifying discovery last week. I had a doctor appointment, and as you all know, the first thing they do is weigh you. Now, we have a scale at home, I just choose not to use it much. As it turns out, I have gained 20 POUNDS since my wedding. Seriously. 20. That was only 4 years ago.

I am fully aware that I have been gaining some weight, but I think I have also been somewhat in denial about the whole issue. Some may argue that technically I am still in the healthy weight range for my height (barely), but I just haven't been feeling very good about myself lately, and I think I am finally ready to address the issue.

On Monday, I started (loosely) dieting. Mostly I am really just trying to be more mindful of what I eat and how much of it I am eating. A few years ago I cut down on portions, limited myself to 2 pops a week, and quit eating out for lunch all the time.  It made a huge difference then, so that's what I'm trying again. I'm also continuing my workouts in the mornings, although I think after doing it for 2 years my body is just used to that level of activity, so realistically I need to increase my activity level to see results.

I made it two days pretty successfully, and then on Wednesday my co-workers asked if I wanted to order lunch from Cafe Fuzion with them. Their chicken pad thai is by far one of my favorite things and I have no self control, so of course I ordered some. Then I made a plan to immediately take half of it out of the container and save the other half for the next day. I ate the whole thing. So much for making good choices.

Today, however, is a new day and I can't take back what I've already consumed. I want to do this so I don't have to buy more new clothes to fit my larger body. I want to do this so I can remain healthy. I want to do this for me and not anyone else. Weight watchers recommends people set a weight loss goal to lose 10% of their total weight, so that is what my goal is. If I reach that, I will be exactly where I want to be.

Don't worry, I'm not going to be one of those annoying people who sit at lunch and criticize/analyze everything I'm eating as well as what everyone else is eating. And I know I will have days when I indulge. I just have to keep reminding myself of the big picture. By next week (or even really tomorrow) will I remember that I didn't get to have french fries for lunch today when they smelled so good? No. It took a lot of time to put the weight on, and I know it will take some time to take it off, but I'm ready to give it a try. Here's hoping.